Don’t hang out with people who don’t love you. Don’t try to impress people who aren’t worth it. Don’t try to win people over who aren’t worth it. Focus on yourself, and focus on the people who are really awesome and who love you. Don’t hang out with people who make you feel like shit. Don’t spend your energy on them. There is so much pressure to be part of the right thing: well, you should create the right thing. If you don’t see it, create it. If you don’t see what you want, be the change you want to see.
People don’t want their lives fixed. Nobody wants their problems solved. Their dramas. Their distractions. Their stories resolved. Their messes cleaned up. Because what would they have left? Just the big scary unknown.
|—||Albert Einstein (via wordsnquotes)|
I want to be a writer. I want to be a dangerous writer. I want to be a writer who goes against everything that you believe in. I want to write something that they keep behind the desk at the library because its content is too explicit, too honest and too real. I want to write something that’s so bad it’s good. I want to write about whores and transexuals and drug addicts and homeless people. I want to write about losers and long shots and underdogs. I want to write about the people you try to ignore because they live a version of life that you don’t like to think about. I want my writing to feel like a pie in the face to those who perpetuate intolerance. I want to give you characters you can root for because you see yourself in them. I want my writing to make you cry. I want my writing to make you want crawl across the bar and swing your hair when they play heavy metal. I want you to read my writing when you’re traveling across the country on a train because you’re young and you’re bored and you’re searching for freedom while nursing a broken heart. I want you to worry about me when you read my writing. I want my writing to be flawed and unorganized and difficult to follow. I want my writing to be rude. I want to be a writer who tells his editor to f*** off and then publish it on my own.I want my writing to be trashy and I want you to feel guilty for enjoying it. I want to write something that breaks too many rules and never wins any awards. I want to write something that makes you want to delete your Facebook and go play outside. I want to write something that makes you to question your sexuality. I want to write something that makes the popular kids from high school feel stupid and unwelcome when they read it. I want to write something for the people whose coin landed heads down instead of heads up. I want my writing to make you want to keep going. I want my writing to make you feel like you are not alone.
In the beginning, you used to whisper, “it will get better” until I’d fall asleep with the phone burning into my ear. But now, I’m not sure I want it to get better. I don’t want missing you to get easier. I want you here with me, without “goodbye” looming over us. I want to wake up to you, not a dial tone. Our calls always end with “I love you”, but once we hang up, I create my own swear words to hurl at the ocean separating us because I cannot replace your touch with the sound of your voice. In my dreams, I’m packing my suitcase and running to you. Come visit soon. This bed doesn’t feel like home without you to share it.
Don’t even think about it, Mom.
Love does not only take one form for everyone. It shifts a lot, it differs, it signifies, and when love finds its proper place in you, then it would be the most beautiful kind of love.
Love is not always about holding hands, and being romantically sweet. It does not require kisses nor cuddles and so on. Love can differ. It can be that long talk with an old friend who knows you. It can be the warm shrug that tells you to never give up. It can be that sweet gift from someone. It can be acceptance and forgiveness. It can be being there no matter what. It can be the moments under the same set of stars. It can be the long night walks, or the laughter over sadness. Love is an emotion but its manifestations differ, and it depends on what you need, on where you are happy, on what complements you.
Love never completes. It complements. And that is the most beautiful kind of love
I failed every math class I ever took at least once
Mrs. Alexander scoffed
She wrote me off
As one of those hoodrat kids
Who only liked making trouble
Whose mother was an alcoholic
Whose father had too much on his plate
Whose sister was captain of the cheer squad
Whose brother got expelled for fighting
She just never knew
The reason I don’t care what the value of x is
I have tasted the value of despair
Drank the value of sorrow
Kissed the value of wonder
Fought the value of misery
Tell me one thing the square root of sixty-four ever did for me
That the square root of love couldn’t do a thousand times more
Mrs. Alexander, how many times 12 goes into 144 is not a division problem
The woman who raised me
Lying in a pool of her own blood
Beaten senseless by a man she loved
While my sister locks herself in a room crying
And my brother and I stay up all night checking mum’s pulse
And I have to go to school the next day and answer your questions
While my heart aches
And my family is being torn apart
And my mother is killing herself
That’s a division problem.
And 56-18 is not subtraction.
The day I had to leave my home
For the rustling in my bones proved too much
To hold my body in one place
And I lost my sanity
Traveling alone down the west coast
Living without a home
or any of my old friends
All on my own
Mrs. Alexander, that is subtraction.
And God forbid I neglect your precious statistics
For the greatest risk I ever took was falling in love
Lord knows how that turned out
The first time I closed my eyes and threw the dice
You want to talk about balance of probability?
Imagine, your fifth hour troublemaker
With the fighter for a brother
The princess for a sister
And the shadow of a mother
Taking a chance on love
After having his heart crushed two times two times
Who goes back for number five?
It’s not a math class that defines our lives.
It’s the way we look at the numbers and against all odds, say, “I am more than the sum of my parts.”
"Math Problems" by Devon Halvorson (via devonhalvorson)
Reading this made my day. Thanks.
I left my bag in our office as I went to go pray. Came back in and saw something in my bag’s back pocket that wasn’t there before.
It was a sealed envelope that said “For (my name).” In it was a folded parchment with my initials written on the outside and this message above.
Anonymous acts of kindness. Getting by these past few days has been pretty tough, I’ve kind of been too shy to ask people for anything. Only close friends if they could cover a small meal at most. May Allah reward this amazing person with Jannat al firdaus. The sense of community and love you feel in this MSA is unparalleled, Alhamdulilah.
This is Islam. These are the college days I’ll recollect, reminisce, and yearn for a few years from now in the future. Its the 30 person mafia games with brothers in a living room to cups of chai and 3 hour discussions about aspirations, ideas, fears, and role models. Its the late night excursions to dining halls for food. Its the walks back through frat row on a Thursday night with your brothers where you thank your Rab for your deen, and being a collected individual in a sea of drunk students. Its teasing white girls taking pictures in “black people” poses by shortly posing like white girls right in front of them for embarrassing pictures. Its people you’ve only known for a few months telling you they feel hella close to you, and that theyre opening up.
Chances are I’m not going to remember every minute detail from my readings and courses. I will remember this stuff, however. This is what will stick with you.